Thursday, July 11, 2013

somewhere in the middle

Thank you, dear Marjojo, for the push to get me back here. It's been so long i didn't know where to start but Erin, you are so right (and wise), that i just need to start in the middle. I had an awesome post written up in my head awhile ago but for the life of me, i can't remember any of it! So i am starting back again somewhere else...for real now.

Sad that i don't have any new artwork to share. My basement studio looks so forlorn and dusty. I can't believe i haven't completed any art for over a year! what kind of artist does that make me, if even one at all?? :(...

But my life has felt fuller and more meaningful since having this little one:

Jaksen @ almost 3 months, taken in June last year. Thank you, Aunt Kazu for this awesome onesie!

He is walking and throwing tantrums now but still super goofy and super cute. People are amazed (surprised) such a beautiful being came from John and me. what the heck but i'll take it. 

1 year old! taken this past June.

This kid likes to play ping pong and say duck and fish. I'm still waiting to hear someone call me mommy...

So like this post, my life is all baby baby now. We have started doing chores together, like washing dishes and sweeping the floor. Hopefully, soon he'll help me clean up my studio and we can make art together!

Monday, January 16, 2012


paper, eggshell pieces, work in progress

Happy new year, everyone! I didn't mean to be away so long...thank you to those who are still checking up on me. You guys are plain awesome :).

Sometimes i wish i had started this blog anonymously so i can feel more free to share whatever is on my mind. There is something i've been wanting the whole world to know but waiting for it to feel more real and to be showing more...I'm going to have a baby, you guys! AND so is my sister!! we are due within a week from one another. what are the chances of that?? Our babies will be like twin cousins. double joy yeah! :)). One of the happiest moments of my life when i found out.

The first three months have passed by sooo slowly. Aside from making it to work during the day, i was pretty much useless the rest of time. Just ate and laid around like a lazy princess, occasionally yelling at John for something or another. heh. poor guy. That's what guys get for not being the one to get pregnant. I don't know how my mom managed to go through all three times with us when she was throwing up constantly. she couldn't even drink water without puking. Man i only threw up once every week or two, and that was bad enough for me to think I am definitely not going through this again...

oh But then my stomach got hard, the nausea went away and i'm feeling this crazy little lump protruding at the lower ab out of nowhere. (Beginning of second trimester.) It was such a creepy feeling. like some alien thing inside me. Doctor said it was baby's leg or foot. It's strange but i found myself falling in love with that leg thing.

And now the days and weeks are going by way too fast. I can barely believe that it's only 3 more months to go! I'm so annoyed i didn't get a chance to take a picture of my belly a few weeks ago when it was like a little watermelon. Now it is a lot rounder and not as cute anymore.

Back in college, one of the themes i was kind of obsessed in exploring was the pregnant body. Made some prints and sculptures of it. But now that i'm actually in this body, i have barely documented anything of it. Hopefully, in the next couple of months, i'll have something more to show...

Monday, August 15, 2011

a cleansing

goodbye fears
goodbye time
goodbye waiting

beeswax, thread, paper & wire
34.5 x 16.5 x 3.5 cm

Thursday, June 16, 2011


It's not really as fleshy and creepy-looking as above. More like this here:

scar, wounded series, wax, string, paper & wire, 13 x 2.8 cm

I made it last week. It's a new addition to the spoon series i thought i was done with last November:

It feels like i have only touched on the surface of what i want to explore. There should be hundreds more.

Monday, May 2, 2011

eggshell spoons

paper, wire, eggshells, works in progress

Something i've been working on these past couple of weeks.

i want to make wings out of you.

John thinks these look like sperms.

Thinking of breath, letting go, keeping steady.

Thursday, March 3, 2011

blood sisters

This is for you, ding dong.

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

seeds and lace

happy new year! rabbit rabbit.

Wednesday, December 15, 2010


hair, paper & wire, 8 x 5.8 x 1.6 cm spoon dimensions

Sunday, December 5, 2010

happy mess

Gosh where to begin...much has happened these past few months. My little uncle's baby was just born a couple of weeks ago. She is the sweetest thing, so tiny and precious in my arms. She also got these oddly long but very cute finger toes. I can't wait to see you again, little Tienna!

What else? Ba is not grumpy with me anymore, happy that John is officially family now. The other day Ting and Francis bonded over being the black sheep of the family. Ma and me able to talk things out no matter what. Sadly, not always the case with some friends though...

But oh yay! i got to meet Marjojo (Marion Michell) for the very first time in person when John and i took a trip to London this past September. So lucky in this lifetime i can get to know and be friends with my favorite artist in the world. Speaking of world, I want the whole world to know that Tate Modern Museum following our visit to Marion Michell's studio was such a disappointment. There was nothing i could remember that was remotely comparable to Marjojo's work. Seriously.

Coming back from the experience in London, i feel transformed, aware of myself changing and growing as a person, and in particularly as an artist. It's a feeling that makes you breathe deeper, stand taller, and unafraid to seek what you want. Thank you, David & Erica, for being there so we could make this trip.

Some studio updates: completed a new series of spoons, making progress with a couple of paintings, still wrapping those broken pieces of eggshell, and dipping all sorts of things in hot beeswax.

I am really loving how the dried fruits and leaves turned out after being covered in waxed. They seemed better protected now from the elements of decaying without being changed too much at all.

art art art

Friday, July 16, 2010


wrapped eggshells

above: my two favorites so far

I am so enjoying wrapping these. I think the pictures do not do them justice. You have to hold them in your hands and see. I showed one of two attached together to May and she just said they look like balls. John didn't get how awesome they are either. oh well. i appreciate you, dear eggyeggs.

These past couple of months had been really slow in studio. blah blah days. Some heartache here and there too but nothing a good heart-to-heart cry can't soothe. Oh and i am learning to garden! A day out in the yard with my parents beats all the horticulture lectures i was taking. So happy to see that the tomato plants my dad brought over are thriving. They were so wilty-looking when i first planted them. I didn't think they were going to make it but next day i checked they perked up like the sunshine :).

Not too long ago, i dreamt of K again. It was so good to see him, even if it is just in dreams.

My worktable right now is scattered with broken halves and pieces of eggshells. i sure eat a lot of eggs. I'm so excited. So many possibilities to make them whole again! Finally, ideas are brimming...

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

these are my treasures

little hairy dress by Marion Michell (aka Marjojo)

I am so sad i will not be able to make it to see Marjojo's art exhibition coming up next week. It is at The Art House in Wakefield, UK. If you are in the area, i hope you'll go see it! Marjojo will rock your world. The opening is on Wednesday, May 26th, from 5-9pm, with Marjojo giving an artist talk at 7pm. The exhibit is up from 26 May - 21 July 2010.

Marjojo, you are an incredible artist and i think you are a superhero.

dimensions: 8 x 6 cm

paper shoes, each shoe width/length: 4.2 x 7.5 cm; height: 4cm & 7 cm

little wild girl, dress dimensions: 12 x 9.5 x 8 cm

beautiful works by Marion Michell

Thursday, April 8, 2010






1.pomegranate 2.clementine 4.avocado seed

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

i like my bad haircut

acrylic and pencil in sketchbook, 10" x 7.5"

John tells me to stop cutting my own hair. Is it really that bad? looks pretty cute to me. I think i am a pro. it's just a little strange that except for one other person, nobody else seemed to have noticed. hmm.

So anyways, the other day, it occurred to me that i could be whatever i wanted to be. like if i wanted to be a doctor, i can go ahead and really do it. It's all just a matter of time and training. I don't know why it was such a revelation but i seriously believed it like i never knew before.

Lately, i've been approaching every little task with the Chinese proverb of moving mountains, one stone at a time in mind. The dishes, the scattered tools, the laundry, tiny bits of styrofoam - picking them all up nice and easy. Not sure where all this is going.

Studio update: a big mess, a drawing here and there, torn prints everywhere, crocheting more bowls to be felted, thorns waiting, spoons cold and neglected...

Sunday, February 14, 2010

hi cupid hi tiger hi mr. presidents hello warriors-winners!

i just want to remember that today has the world spinning even if i'm not.


some ups and downs. spending vday and lunar new year alone right now. the studio feels empty and abandoned. tomorrow we will go home and be with family. i'll start again and see where this takes me...

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

monna's hair

Ting yelled at me for my last post. i sheepishly felt loved again. A couple months ago, while getting my studio space in order, i came upon a newspaper bundle. I opened it and saw two ponytails of Ting's hair. scared the heck out of me. Quickly remembered that i had found it at home last year and secretly took it back with me. Isn't it so beautiful? i am torn about returning it (so it can be donated as it was intended years ago) or keeping it for myself...

So i've been taking it easy with studio work. making more wimpy starts and not finishing much still. I don't like it at all. I decided i need to treat this whole process as work that i have to do regardless if i feel like it or not. EveryDay. well, except for Mondays, cuz the full-day studio weekends are more exhausting than day job work and i'll definitely need a break in the evening. and Thursday evenings cuz we have to watch Survivor (and a movie). And probably Fridays since that is usually our clean-up day. Well. that aint so bad, is it?

Tea time!

pencil and acrylic on paper, 12.7 x 10.2 cm

A drawing done earlier this month. One thing i'm happy with that came out from these few weeks of take-it-easy studio time. But i know i can do more so i will I Will.